30 terms and definitions - one year no. XI

cured heel - auschwitz on a cold rainy may day - strange e-mails (is) - training exercise at the olympiastadion practice football fields - medical check - minsk and snow - losing contact (cn, se, sn, mh, ml) - relaxing working days in london - visiting musical and theatre shows in the westend (phantom of the opera, the lion king, you are arrested, a christmas carol) - supporting a go-live in june - difficulties to process the information that the project will come to an end - spanisch lessons in málaga - an incredible snorring room partner in the hospital - visiting the westfalenstadion in february - giving money to a brother, as simple as that - passing two spanish exams at instituto cervantes - taking medicine - running for a second passport, a whole day, on december 23rd - reading spanish original literature - a strange day in june (lh) - to admit that new relationships are needed - getting rid of apple products, finally - discovering new parts of berlin (mauerweg) - new neighbours - trying to avoid private flights - replanning a big journey, under time pressure

and in the darkest hour...

... you run.

kontakte...

... nehmen ab. viel zentriert sich um familien. und der rand? und der rest?

memories

you're sitting in a plane, on the ground sandy beaches and palm trees and the crystal blue mediterranen sea, becoming smaller and smaller as the airplane gains height. you're opening a black notebook, and you start reading. from the very first day of your absence in 2016 until the day of your arrival in 2017 (and beyond). though a lot of details are missing, and not every event is described correctly, a sketch of your personality is drawn and becomes more complete and complex with every page you are turning. and, to be honest, this personality is not a perfect one, by far not. uneasy, cranky, avaricious, hurt, arrogant. in your opinion, you may be the most reasonable person on earth. but the truth is, and a mirror will show it: you are not.

our house is on fire

My name is Greta Thunberg. I am 16 years old. I come from Sweden. And I want you to panic. I want you to act as if the house was on fire. I have said those words before, and a lot of people have explained why that is a bad idea. A great number of politicians have told me that panic never leads to anything good, and I agree. To panic unless you have to, is a terrible idea. But when your house is on fire and you want to keep your house from burning to the ground, then that does require some level of panic.

Our civilization is so fragile, it is almost like a castle built in the sand. The facade is so beautiful, but the foundations are far from solid. We have been cutting so many corners.

Yesterday, the world watched with despair and enormous sorrow how the Notre Dame burnt in Paris. Some buildings are more than just buildings. But the Notre Dame will be rebuilt. I hope that its foundations are strong. I hope that our foundations are even stronger, but I fear they are not.

Around the year 2030, 10 years 259 days and 10 hours away from now, we will be in a position where we set off an irreversible chain reaction that will most likely lead to the end of our civilization as we know it. That is, unless in that time, permanent and unprecedented changes in all aspects of society have taken place, including a reduction of our CO2 emissions by at least 50%. And please note that these calculations are depending on inventions that have not yet been invented at scale, inventions that are supposed to clear our atmosphere of astronomical amounts of carbon dioxide.

Furthermore, these calculations do not include unforeseen tipping points and feedback loops like the extremely powerful methane gas escaping from rapidly thawing arctic permafrost. Nor do they include already locked in warming hidden by air pollution. Nor the aspect of equity, or climate justice, clearly stated throughout the Paris Agreement, which is absolutely necessary to make it work on a global scale. We must also bear in mind that these are just calculations, estimations. That means that these "points of no return" may occur a bit sooner or later than that. No one can know for sure. We can, however, be certain that they will occur approximately in these timeframes, because these calculations are not opinions or wild guesses. These projections are backed up by scientific facts, concluded by all nations through the IPCC. Nearly every major national scientific body around the world unreservedly supports the work and findings of the IPCC.

We are in the midst of the sixth mass extinction, and the extinction rate is up to 10,000 times faster than what is considered normal, with up to 200 species becoming extinct every single day. Erosion of fertile topsoil, deforestation of our great forests, toxic air pollution, loss of insects and wildlife, the acidification of our oceans. These are all disastrous trends being accelerated by a way of life that we, here in our financially-fortunate part of the world, see as our right to simply carry on. But hardly anyone knows about these catastrophes or understand how they are just the first few symptoms of climate and ecological breakdown. Because how could they? They have not been told. Or more importantly: they have not been told by the right people and in the right way.

Our house is falling apart, and our leaders need to start acting accordingly, because at the moment they are not. If our house was falling apart, our leaders wouldn't go on like you do today. You would change almost every part of your behaviour, as you do in an emergency. If our house was falling apart, you wouldn't fly around the world in business class chatting about how the market will solve everything with clever small solution to specific isolated problems. You wouldn't talk about buying and building your way out of a crisis that has been created by buying and building things.

If our house was falling apart, you wouldn't hold three emergency Brexit summits and no emergency summit regarding the breakdown of the climate and environment. You wouldn't be arguing about phasing out coal in 15 or 11 years. If our house was falling apart, you wouldn't be celebrating that one single nation like Ireland may soon divest from fossil fuels. You wouldn't celebrate that Norway has decided to stop drilling for oil outside the scenic resort of Lofoten Island, but will continue to drill for oil everywhere else for decades. It's 30 years too late for that kind of celebrations.

If our house was falling apart, the media wouldn't be writing about anything else. The ongoing climate and ecological crisis would make up all the headlines. If our house was falling apart, you wouldn't say that you have the situation under control and place the future living conditions for all species in the hands of inventions that are yet to be invented. And you would not spend all your time as a politician arguing about taxes or Brexit. If the walls of our house truly came tumbling down, surely you would set your differences aside and start cooperating.

Well, our house is falling apart, and we are rapidly running out of time. And yet, basically nothing is happening. Everyone and everything needs to change. So, why waste precious time arguing about what and who needs to change first? Everyone and everything has to change. But the bigger your platform, the bigger your responsibility. The bigger your carbon footprint, the bigger your moral duty.

When I tell politicians to act now, the most common answer is that they can't do anything drastic, because that would be too unpopular among the voters. And they are right of course, since most people are not even aware of why those changes are required. That is why I keep telling you to unite behind the science, make the best available science the heart of politics and democracy.

The EU elections are coming up soon, and many of us who will be affected the most by this crisis, people like me, are not allowed to vote. Nor are we in a position to shape the decisions of business, politics, engineering, media, education, or science. Because the time takes for us to educate ourselves to do that simply does no longer exists, and that is why millions of children are taking it to the streets, school striking for the climate to create attention for the climate crisis.

You need to listen to us, we who cannot vote. You need to vote for us, for your children and grandchildren. What we are doing now can soon no longer be undone. In this election, you vote for the future living conditions of human kind. And though the politics needed do not exist today, some alternatives are certainly less worse than others. And I have read that some parties do not even want me standing here today because they so desperately do not want to talk about climate breakdown.

Our house is falling apart. The future, as well as what we have achieved in the past, is literally in your hands now. But it's still not too late to act. It will take a far-reaching vision. It will take courage. It will take a fierce determination to act now to lay the foundations where we may not know all the details about how to shape the ceiling. In other words, it will take "cathedral thinking."

I ask you to please wake up and make the changes required possible. To do your best is no longer good enough. We must all do the seemingly impossible. And it's okay if you refuse to listen to me. I am, after all, just a 16-year-old schoolgirl from Sweden. But you cannot ignore the scientists, or the science, or the millions of school-striking children who are school-striking for the right to a future. I beg you: please do not fail on this. Thank you.

-- Greta Thunberg

Miren por ejemplo...

.. a esa chica, a algunos metros detrás de nuestro chiquillo. Poco agraciada, estudiante de Economía, nunca ha tenido relaciones sexuales. Ella dice tan solo que no << se ha presentado la ocasión >>, aunque es bastante más complicado que eso, pero no importa.

-- La forma de las ruinas, Juan Gabriel Vázquez

you're reading...

... not your own travel memories, but the ones of other persons. you're imagining how it would be like in those places, some of them you had visited already. to feel the wind, the sun, the rain. to observe people, to let your thoughts flow, to read, to decide for activities, directions - in short: to be the owner of your path. at least for a certain period of time. again.

and then, you're not looking at the computer screen anymore. your eyes are wandering across the open-plan office. there couldn't be any bigger contrast. you're feeling the energy, so clearly, for the first time since your return in 2017. your finger tips are itching in anticipation of what might be possible. if you had the choice, you would just walk out of the door and leave.

right here. right now.

Determined and Passionate

When Advocates come to believe that something is important, they pursue that goal with a conviction and energy that can catch others off-guard. Advocates will rock the boat if they must. Not everyone likes to see this, but their passion for their chosen cause is an inseparable part of the Advocate personality.

Source

erkältung, ...

... die vierte in den letzten 12 monaten. frühes aufstehen, zeitverschiebung, keine ruhe, immer unterwegs. erwachsensein?

Am besten...

... funktioniert es, wenn man sich Menschen mit ähnlichen Interessen anschließt, sei es Sport, etwas Handwerkliches oder ein anderes Hobby. Wichtig ist, anfangs nicht zu viel zu erwarten. Wenn ich auf andere zugehe, sollte ich die Gefahr einkalkulieren, zurückgewiesen zu werden.

- Maike Luhmann

more than two years...

... without vacation. without break. instead, solving tasks. given to you by others, given to you by yourself. this cannot continue for eternity. and it won't. because you are very well aware of it.

algunas veces...

... la gente se va y no sabemos por que.

I feel nothing...

... when you cry
I hear nothing, see no need to reply
I can smile now, and turn away
Come over here, so you can see me walk away, and celebrate
The end of night (The end of night)
The end of night (The end of night)
The end of night (The end of night)
The end of night (The end of night)

- Dido

el tren...

solo pasa una vez en la vida.

bein, fuß, ellbogen, ...

... blut, auge, brust, knie - tag für tag leistet der eigene körper unmenschliches. das kann auf dauer nicht gut gehen. leider.

Wer...

... an die Freiheit des menschlichen Willens glaubt, hat nie geliebt und nie gehasst.

- Marie von Ebner-Eschenbach